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So, good evening everyone. I have one more assignment. Group assignment. TBH I was so grateful I have one group that me and N say leftover group because no one want us and in the end we actually get to finish it and I'm very proud of N with her video editting and H with his well speak as a narrator. I had fun. I actually did when you have group member that can cooperate and fun. I think this is the reason of why the lecture ask us to perform a group. I think. Because this is what group work should do. Even I didn't perform much I never bail on them. I still go everywhere with them. Go to the place to do the interview, went to the study room till 3am in the morning. I really am grateful to have them as a groupmates. We barely have argument because all we did was laughing at each other. I swear it was the best memory that I had so far. I didn't tell them because they might think that I'm weird. Compare to my other group. I have to be careful incase I hurt their feelings....

Hi to whoever read this. So tonight I decided to write and I have two more days till Classes start. I have few assignment that needs to be done. Talk about promise to do it in the middle of mid sem break is bullshit. I try to finish it within this week but by doing this alone. It's impossible to finish them. I just read the manual and it say I have to search more than 10 Lit review. I try to contact the one who was suppose to do it with me but she keep ignoring me. I didn't only not get the chance to finish this work but I also get kicked out from the group. I just realize one thing is that if you being rude and try to fix things, don't do it. People hate it. I'm actually 100% clueless while typing here. I have to be some kind of plastic around people. I can't be myself while other people can. I really hate it. I can't give my perspective without people judge me. Then what the fuck am I doing in the class if I can't perform and grab those marks? What the fu...

My roommate were going to print her stuff then my six year old ink printer ran which is something that I'm surprisingly excited about. I was like finally it ran out. Here I am in the living room trying to get a fast internet connection by being a mosquito bite. My roommate were having her friend to stay the night in our room. In other word we will be staying up really late like last time. I have foreign language and history class. I already do my early preparation like choose which blouse am I going to wear. Is it suitable with my shoes? my headscarf? and so onnnnnn........ I did try being a cupid which is a very ridiculous idea hahahahahaha... it's 1:47am and I'm still up. I swear I'm going to be very sleepy tomorrow. I'm going to buy some ice coffee to make myself stay awake. I also need to buy new umbrella since I break it. It's not mine it's my sister and now I'm afraid of coming home. Superr... I think one hour sleep is enough eventhough it was ver...

Hey, today I'm going to talk something that I haven't talk for a very long time which is my past. Ever since I came to this University I forget about my past and decided to focus on my study instead but after listening to my roommate's friend story I just realize one thing that is that I'm not the only one that have trouble with my past. She say most of her good memory have been covered by the bad one. I was shock of how she explain her life and how she deal with it and she say her pain help her the most and turn her into something that she didn't expected that is being a human with good perks. She's extremely smart and I was very surprise about. I didn't expect something that give you pain can turn you into something extraodinaire and she prove it. I kinda like her. She may be insane and crazy 😂 but after what she gone through it explain everything. And I want to be like her. I need to move on from this pain so I could be extraodinaire like her. And Girl ...

Hi and good evening. I just got back from the faculty and use Grabcar to pick me and my friend and send us back to our dorms. My eating schedule have change since I came here and due to my laziness I didn't even bother to eat sometimes cause my food supplies still available and the food is sometimes very terrible due to the cleanliness. I try to be like any student and went to the cafe but in the end I left and cook instant noodle. I don't really like wasting my money on the food that I think that will make me sick. So this week I'm probably going to spend the whole day at the faculty because the University were having a Convocation day for the seniors and I only waste my time at there just for the food bazaar and also some games. I could say that I start to become an outgoing person unlike before and yes I still lazying around in my dorm. Apparently I'm going to miss my housemate first dance show! Errr what a terrible housemate I am. I receive a text from my mom sayin...

I've been at the University that I got accepted for almost 3 weeks. There's are few changes in my life for example I change the way I dress. My parent got very proud about that. I'm still getting used to live with other people other than my family which give me a huge impact in my life for now. My housemate are very super fun and hilarious which I can joke around and be myself other than being someone that I'm not unlike the next door who likes to brag about her non-existent life which I keep telling myself when will she stop make a fool out of herself. The first time I come here I didn't brag about my family background and what I did when I was here infact I'm just being me and introduce myself and let all my flaws went out hahahahahaha.... I prefer people not know about my family background. I like to be humble. I like to make new friends and also I like to joke around because to me life is about happiness. After all those years of depression I decided to be ...

heyyyy.... I finally found a time to update my blog, I just got back to my dorm after the discussion with my coursemate, and my roommate is sick, I'm pretty sure I'm going to sleep without blanket tonight. when I came back from the cafeteria I found she switch the fan to 1 and I was like, what the hell is her problem. I meant is she insane? then I ask her what's wrong and she told me that she's sick. I have no choice but to say okay you can use my blanket to warm yourself. I sleep with sock on tonight. It's cool anyway. I have to keep it short since my roommate has fall asleep tho. so goodnight

Hey everyone, as you all know this year is the year where I've become a college student or University student whichever you want to called. My room consist of two person when I register for the dorm. Actually I live in the hostel with 6 other girls which is fun as if I'm in a sorority house. But my only problem is sleeping during the night. It's pretty hot in the room in the middle of the night. I couldn't open the window because of the mosquito. I just learn my lesson that mosquito at here is way worse than home and I'm really annoyed by it. I have one roommate which is sleeping right now. She's a year older than me I bet she's going to tell me in the morning that she had sleeping problem during the night which is a lie because each night I keep checking on her. It's 3 o'clock in the morning and I try to do revision online which is offline so the difficulty is I have to wait in the morning. Thank goodness I didn't have early morning class or an...

Hey, it's pretty late and I decided to write something. Okay so I decided to go to this wedding last minute again like the last time. But this time, I pay the ticket with my own money. At first I was happy because I'm going to another wedding in different state. So far I went 4 wedding in different state. So this is my fourth. I was ecstatic at that time. I'm going on this trip by my own without my parents but with my uncle and his family. I stay with him. I want to be a little adventurous because I'm 20 and I barely leave my home or the state. The day I arrive have been chaos day. I just left the plane and my aunt literally left her ID in the plane due to her rushing to left the plane. I told my cousin that just now Dad just advice me to keep my ID in my purse after I get into the plane. We both wait and I even get my moment while waiting for my aunt. That's settle. We met my cousin and her future husband. That night we use two cars, I ride with my cousin in law a...

Hellooooo.... Apparently I might not going anywhere this year due to my sister's finals. That's mean I'm stuck at home while both my parents get the chance to leave the country. Great! been left out again for the forth time. I told them I want to visit my friend but ofcourse I get decline. I just want to leave my house and go somewhere. Driving? Bahhh... my driving sucks. I still driver in training cause well.. me being me.. obviously... Well people always say good thing always come to someone who's patience. And yes I am a very patience person... I don't know why but I am. Hahahahaha.... it happens to me few times back when I was 16-17. I receive few stuff from my mom and my uncle, and I am utterly grateful for the coolest stuff cause I never ask for it and it came to me like a miracle and I am grateful. Move on from me being grateful... My mom took me to my favorite place, a place where it all start, a place where I fall in love with HISTORY for the first ti...

Hey it's me again. I've been thinking alot and since I haven't settle in for the University and still wait for the email whether I get accepted or not. I've been enggage into a small conversation with my uncle. We could say I was force into a conversation with my uncle. Brain meet unusual brain (ME!). There's few university that he want me to apply to and I don't exactly plan to leave my parents. I may not or barely listen to my parents but leaving them was never my intention because when you been going a lot of problems with your relatives and all of that and it make you want to leave instantly and never came back kind of giving you the guilt feels. I gotta admit I got yelled at by my cousin and she called me rude as I grew up and to me that is so amature cause I never yell at people like that in public and I get upset cause she embarassed me. I don't exactly give a damn about her but she's a bitch with a high pitch voice. Wait till you hear her baby ...

Hello! I just got back from Granny's birthday party. It was okay because one thing I know is she has fun all her kids came all the way from other places. I basically hide with the hotel staff cause I just don't care. I won some cash from the family game which is I got the highest price hahahaha.... bless from the running show that I watch before I went to the party I guess. Anyway, there's no drama cause once you causes drama no one give a shit about you and there's me who just enjoy myself sing our family songs, and climb on the couch which were prepared behind just to grab my balloon cause it's helium so it wouldn't be funny if it didn't flew and everyone laugh. The kids were there and say oh my god! I can't believe she's my aunt. Hahahaha... Sorry kids I'm a kid at heart so bear with me kiddo. My mom I'm glad she enjoy herself and so does dad and my sibling. We are a human being and we will never ever be perfect. I know that I'm 80% n...

Good evening everyone, I know that I don't usually update my blog at the evening compare to late night or early morning. I have plans tonight so that's why I can't update anything. I have to be at my cousin's house because she threw a grateful party (idk what to called it) So basically this whole week I might be busy. My mom make me to come with her to my cousin's house if it was me I don't even want to go cause I know the house might be fill with fake people and the surrounding might get a little bit tense due to the unknown hatred relationship. I know nothing about it since last time I didn't  go there cause I was busy with my semester one exam. TBH I don't want to come. I don't like being around people like my relatives. Most of the time I'm on positive vibe and by being with them just make it turn into negative vibe which I hate the most. I like being around people who's not difficult or way too much. I like being few people who I can ta...

Hey.... I just woke up from my nap it was so called nap cause I decide to sleep early today but then I woke up at 1:00am. So I decide to turn on my laptop and do what I usually do, update my blog, listen to some song from my spotify account and sing cause by now I know I'm the only one who's awake. Moving on.... I've been watching Japanese movies which I recently hooked to it. It's rare to me cause usually I watch some English movies but now I watch Japanese movies more recently cause well for once I got influenced by my friend. He introduce me to anime and our conversation is basically anime whenever we met each other. And now since I start to watch live action and I found this movie called Takumi-kun series which has 5 movies. It's Boy Lover movie and I'm not a picky when it comes to movie. I usually look up to it and agree to watch it except movie that killing and showing blood. Ha! I don't even watch Saw series, why should I watch killing move which...

Goodmorning everyone, Just as soon I woke up my back hurts. This is the second time. But with this time I could bear it and do chores. Well as usual on Chinese New Year rain happens every year. Which to me is okay cause I like cold but not too much cold cause my nose will bleed and I will start hiccup. It seems like my dad didn't go to work today since I hear he does the chores. I usually get up late and went straight to the kitchen to do the dishes or making myself something to eat. Since I'm off from high school that's mean I'm stuck at home till my result came out. I won't be going anywhere this year cause my parents they have their own plans which doesn't involve me and my siblings. Mom went to Australia (I wanna go to!) and Dad have work some kind of meeting in Paris (I didn't even held my hand up to come with him / I have no money to pay for the ticket) So thats mean when I have my driving license I would have to be my sister's driver which I...

Hey people and good morning (2:54am) I really hate insomnia, I don't drink coffee. I only drink coffee when I have migraine or loads of assignment but since I'm used to go to bed late. This happen. Sleepless night. So... it's 2018 and still no news from J which is sucks but one thing that I know is to move on. I try, I did try everyday. It's frustrating sometimes when someone that you need the most just left like that. But oh well, it's just not my luck and I don't care. I just need to focus on myself for now. It's stressful and I'm trying to reward myself everyday by trying to be good to people. I'm suck at that especially to people who being rude to me, suddenly pissed at me, people that I dislike and someone who try to bait themself as my victim (basically I don't point my fingers at anyone or blame). My dad say that my PR sucks. The way that I communicate with people. But seriously if I talk softly people would think what did she just say...

Goodmorning everyone, it's almost noon so yeah, I decide to update my blog a little earlier cause usually I update my blog at night and not in daytime. But today I'm going to my mom's boss's house for Chinese New Year' Open house or party whatever you want to called them and I also receive an invitation to go to C's house, I would love to go but we might stay there a little bit longer and I'm not a big fan of going to other people's houses. Even on Eid, I was force by my parents to go visiting. Anywho, I'm a little bit panicking cause next month my exam going to came out and I haven't decide which university I'm going to apply to. I have so many options but the Capital city is never was my option to go cause I'm just a ol' country village girl, whatever you wanna called who live near the city. At here there's village in the city which is very common. Hahahahaha... So, there few university that I wanna apply but I even tell myse...

Hey, it's 1:31AM in the morning. And again my insomnia decide to kick me again so that's the reason why I stay up late. It's bad for my health including my beauty (face). I basically watching Netflix rn cause I couldn't sleep and I'm the only one who's up. My cousin and her husband already fell asleep and that's just leave me alone by my own in this 14th floor apartment. I did think about swim alone in the swimming pool across the lake but then since I have weird fear of ghost. So I just decide to stay in and watch Netflix eventhough I'm keep yawn few times for now. So now I'm rewatching the flash. And yes I'm a big fan of the flash. I'm a big fan of Cisco. Why? Have you ever see his reaction and the sassiness that came out from his mouth? It's quite amusing actually hahahahaha....

Hey..... so it's 5:04AM in the morning, I couldn't sleep and still wide awake. This happen when my sleepless assignment night became my night routine. School is over like 5 month ago. I'm turning 20 this year which doesn't excite me much cause I'm not a big fan of growing up. I'm listening to some random song in Spotify's playlist. Since I'm legally an adult I've watch 50 shades freed. hahahahahaha.... I prefer the movie than the books because of the scenes that rated - R .The movie didn't show much like the book did which I am very thankful because the reason why I read and watch the book is because for once it's twific and then turned into a real book. I'm a big fan of Twilight's series so that's why I decide to read it. But the movie is okay, I get to watch the chemistry between Ana and Christian in reality than imagination. Anyway... I have a major crush on the guy who played Sawyer 😍, Brant Daugherty. He's so hot! And h...

Hey, it's me again?! For now I'm busy looking for a job cause I have bunch of time that I'm gonna waste it by sit around and do nothing. So I decide to do something else by looking for a job for a teen like me. So far no luck due to my busy schedule so for now I'm pretty much have more time for my house chores which I called cooking lesson from my mom. I know how to cook simple stuff like that which does not amaze anyone. I practically jamming right now. I just went to my spotify account and play any throwback songs which bring me back to the past. So.... I've been difficult for almost a week cause I just can't move on from the past like there something keep stab me in the back for many many times. I being honest I want whoever the reason why I'm like this is to fuck off from my life and my parents. I don't fucking need you fuck up their relationship. I being honest, I'm basically tired mentally and physically. I don't fucking need you in my l...