E's World

Hey hey hey... Here I am listen to my favourite band that is All American Rejects (Fangirl scream inside) Actually the reason is I actually sacrifice my heart again. It's not like I pull my heart out from my chest. No way! That's insane hahahaha..... actually I have become a good friend to someone and we argue because I badmouth the bestfriend. And eventually the someone fall inlove with the bestfriend, but the thing is I like the someone. To people it's normal, everyone has gone through it. But I try to cope with my feelings but it's impossible. I keep asking myself am I making a huge mistake for hurting myself? That, I don't know. I think I've turn into Patrick from the perks of being a wallflower. Except I don't have Charlie for me to talk to so that's sucks. Anyway maybe it is my false but I can't force people to do what I want to do. So here I am act as if I'm a good friend to the someone and be like "YOU CAN DO IT!" and in the e...

It seems like holiday is almost over. I went to other district due to my cousin's wedding which I'm not a fan of. I keep telling myself it was a vacation which I will enjoy it but yea I did enjoy my vacation which start after the wedding. There's going to be another wedding next year. Today is the engagement day. I was very tired today. I have to go to my neighbor's baby shower, Grandpa's birthday (I enjoy the party but can we stop pointing at people from now on), and the engagement. Most of the grown up were having meeting in the living room and me and the kids were in the tv room. Which is the best because I won't get in the middle of what the grown up were talking about. I still haven't went book shopping for my next semester. I've been having small talk with my cousin about University and thank god he understand what I've been through and what I say to him. I told him after I finish high school people start pressure me. About what I should do wi...

As usual it's raining at here. I delete my old blog because I want to try something new eventhough I didn't write anything much in the old blog and this new blog need so many things to do. I turn 18 this year so happy birthday to me. Actually it's sucks getting older but oh well. I'm still waiting for my Hogwarts letter. I haven't given up yet. I watch Fantastic beast and where to find them. I have a major crush on Newt Scamander. I also want to be Magizoologist. I wish... Starting this year I've became a fan of Alice in Wonderland. I've notice that being normal is boring. I thought that yea why don't I try something new right? So I did. I used to wear blacks. But now I decide to wear different dark colour. kinda cool huh? I have new friends, it is a SHE. She's insanely adorable totally different than me and everything about her is PINK!!!! I like to be friend with her. She's nice and different than any girls in my class, she's a girl who ...