E's World

Apparently since I enter the university I get the chance to experience summer break. Hello everyone and whoever read this. I feel like writing today without any reason. I’m on my summer break which lead to stuck at home and I haven’t been a productive person lately and I haven’t unpack my bags after got home from college. And by next week I’m going on my summer camp at Thailand which I’m very excited because I get to meet my camp mates. I brag about it and I happened to be bringing my niece with me. We just knew each other that we’re related. And the funniest thing is I’ll be away from 3 weeks and to be honest. I’ve been very nervous about it because it’s my first time leaving my country and I know I won’t be alone at there. But in my mind I go there as if I’m alone. I’ll go there in return favor to my friend who I met at camp. Back to my main purposes. This going to be my first summer camp. Most people might think how boring is it or a waste of time. To me it isn't. I've be...

Sawadeeka.... I just get free time since the camp, it was hectic and very packed but I did have a nice time. I make new friends from different country. I even got a crush on a guy. But he has a girlfriend so I just move on from it 55555555. I just got home from the mall hang with them and I wish they went back to their country on Thursday instead of tomorrow. I'm going to send them off tomorrow. One thing that I know for sure is I'm going to tick 3 things off the bucket list. It was very interesting and fun. I think this is all I'm going to talk about. Goodnight ES'138

Hello.... I was suppose to be back home right now but I decide to stay because I join the Uni's function which is pretty rare for me because I'm not a person who's join any activity even back then in high school. I was waiting for my friend to do the assignment. I was waiting for her part since I've already done mine and I'm pretty sure I understand what I jolt down in my journal. I'm afraid I won't wake up early in the morning since it's start early but who cares. I think I'm going to take a walk since I'm bored and tired. I am tired. Extremely tired. I want to go home but I can't bail on my friends. That's one. Now I'm afraid I might end up depression. I have no mood to do anything. My stomach hurt and I have no appetite to eat. This is seriously fucked up. I always told myself be nice to anyone and smile but I think if I meet people right now I might just gave them a straight line smile. I'm just tired. There's time t...

Hello... Apparently I plan to update or write more frequently since I still had the time to write and before I get busy with piles of assignment. So right now I'm in my room while waiting for my clothes in the dryer. I'm practically with my roommie's friend. She came here very often which I never mind since she's a good company compare to my roommie. I went out to have dinner eventhough I plan to cook dinner since this is what I should do since I live here by myself without my parents. I don't really had anything to talk about since I didn't feel well after I took a nap in the evening which is a bad idea. So I'm pretty sure I'm going to have a sorethroat tonight if I didn't drink plenty of water and my parents going to be very pissed if I didn't took care of my health. I took extra classes and manage to persuade my friend. The reason why I took it is because it's the classes that I took before and I think me and my coursemate are the on...

Hellooooo.... Apparently it's night and I just got back from having dinner with my friends. We discuss about our group work and out assignment. As always whenever I'm with them I had fun most of the time. Till those two buy cute cereal container and then one of my friend say ' Dad I'm sorry that I waste my pocket money for this useless things' and then me and my other friend check our account and thought about having dinner by eating ramen the whole week. Hahahahahaha.... But as soon as I got back to my room. I do what I was suppose to do and ignore people around me. Not that I don't care, it's just I just don't give a damn thing about it eventhough I know that my roommate is my responsibility but she didn't treat me the way I treat her so I just ignore it. I have piles of work to do than bother about it. 2 days of semester 2 and I have two assignment that I need to do. I decide to do it tomorrow at the library. I also have classes tomorrow at ...

Hey, I just got back from going out with my dad. I think I surprise him because we had a deep conversation about my dad in the university. He never stay that long at the dining table but today he did. He listen to my rants about the apartment about people who live in it, friends who want to change faculty and the prices of the books. I did told him that the book is expensive and I use my piggy bank money to buy the book and the food supply. I told him it's okay I can handle it. I'll use my money to pay for the fees and for all the things that needed money. The whole day my feelings were unsettling and again I feel I accomplish something. I prove that I did something that didn't put burden on my parents that's is I pay for my own fees with my piggy bank money. I feel proud about myself for how I handle things that used to be handle by my parents. My uncle say he was gonna sponsor me books but the night after we had an awkward and tense dinner. The way he treat me ca...

What I'm going to talk here at 4PM is things that have been bugging my head for a while. Tbh till I start enter the University, I've been trying to figure about my life. This confusing life, people who's been around me, things that I have done and my accomplishment. Yep I'm still confuse. When I try to talk about this with people, they give me negative perspective of how they look at me and how they judge me. As a 20 year old lady who still act childish around her parents and her family, I'm not dumb as people thought I would be. Most people say over thinking is not good but whenever I'm over thinking, especially when I think about what I study in the class, I compare it with real life. But do people understand me? I don't think they would understand me. They would just bash whatever I talk to them or what I try to send messages to them. I had a bad feelings this semester will be tougher than before. I know I will face so many challenges. My perspective...

I pass my exam with a CGPA 2.91. My first very own University result. Goddd I thought I was gonna fail. For the exam in the past of two years legitly give me trauma. I end up in tears. My dad yell at me. My family... well my family apparently, they like to kill someone from the inside. But this sem I pass, I legitly thought I was going to fail but oh my god, my wish came true! If I didn't get C on my elective subject I would get 3.0 but well atleast I get to lift one burden off my shoulder. I was going to talk about something else but hahahahahha.... my grades distract me. One thing that I want to say is I am so bless having great friends. They are amazing. I try to keep up by being friendly and not awkward and I made it. I was going to talk about something that I chat with my friend last night. We talk about my mental problem. Eversince I left high school, I've notice I have anxiety. Anxiety being around people. In other word social anxiety. I can't be around people who...

Hello!!!! I'm back in my room, in my home, not in the dorm room or in other word the student apartment which include 9 person including me. I'm glad to be back home and away from the University. I went home late compare to my friends who has to flew back to their hometown. Since I live near, I decide to wait my roommate but apparently she kick me out so I'm going to say "thank you for the most ups and down in the past 5 month, not only you gave me the space that I need for also the misunderstood things about me" 🙏 10 things that I learn so far for the past 5 month: 1, I live with people who I just met. 2, I have rights to leave the room whenever I want (still stick to my ma and pa's rules) 3, No one going to serve you food or cook for you 4, How it feel to spend my own money 5, Do laundry by hands 6, Responsible toward myself compare to before 7, High patience, compare to before 8, Respect someone older than you (my roommates and housemates) 9, ...