E's World

Heyyyy.... it's me again, E as usual. I have so much fun today. I get to play volleyball with my classmate. I practically playing volleyball with a very long skirt which doesn't exactly follow the rules but who cares, it's only for training. Anyway, today me and my friends use google maps just to search for our house which I think is very funny. So this mean I'm not the only one who love google maps and search for people's houses 😄. I dream of J today when I took a nap and I feel surprisingly annoying... Believe me I am very annoying when I woke up from my dream. I just can't get over him. I try to stop thinking about him, but he suddenly appear in my dream. I feel like I've been haunted by my own memory. I get it that I messed up but I just can't stop think about him. I've been distracting myself from thinking about him but I just wish he stop appear in my brain cause for now. TBH I wish he did text me back. Tell me that I'm not a very good pe...

Good afternoon everyone, the reason why I didn't write anything  is because of school work and with this semester I can't repeat the exam is I fail so I try to work hard for this semester if I want to go to the university that I'm going to apply next year. I feel extremely lazy when my mom tell me and my siblings that we're going to have dinner with her brother 😔. There so many things going on since the last two years. But I'm proud of myself that I pass in my exam for the last two years but as usual your cousin try to tell you that you didn't do well but you fail. I didn't fail and I'm pretty sure I ace my exam without give a shit about family drama and boyfriends. I know that I only get 1A but atleast I didn't have E of worse G . I pass my exam with the help of 10$ tuition from school and I stay at school till noon to have extra class with my Science teacher. I really work hard to not fail. But who give a damn about it when you're stinky rich...

Heyyyy.... How you doing? Fine? Anyway.... I was in the middle of doing the assignment more like groupwork assignment... hmmm.... We actually divide the work while at school and right now I'm stuck with it and I can't watch Fight for my way back korean drama due to my unfinish assignment. The only thing that I don't like is when I'm cranky, it's impossible for me to control my anger no matter how hard I try. So for now I'm okay and slight headache. I want to stay awake the whole night but I can't! urgh!! I have 3 more month till I leave high school and I can't wait. TBH I'm scare like I want to just stuck in bed and don't bother to get up. I'm not ready for the outside world. It's not that beautiful once you step out. I don't really know to describe it but I've been imagine it had been like Gotham city in Batman movie. Maybe it won't be that bad if you know how to deal with it and yourself. I notice that once teen around my a...

Hey... and here I am sitting on the floor after I help making Shepherd's pie. Mom want to have them for dinner so me and my sibling decide to make the pie for her. I've been reading this dude post about the day he went through. I know I have no rights to judge but after reading what he wrote on the facebook I feel bad for him, to me he deserve something more than being treat like a piece of shit. I'm glad he has friends that could help him and be there for him when he need them. I don't think anyone deserve to be treat as if they were nothing. that's a crap! Even I was treated differently at school just because I always sit by the desk and read a book. I admit I was a loner or whatever they wanna called me. That's their deals not mine. They think being a loner is sad and a huge disappointment. Actually being a loner is not a huge disappointment, it's just I like to be by my own or have very little friends. I don't have to worry about hurting other peopl...

Heyyy.... it's school night and I was suppose to go to sleep... so.... Yesterday has been a very tiring day, there were so many people came over to my uncle house (mom told me). Things that I want to say is the thing that have been playing in my mind and it start to annoy me. I think I've been imagine things that I wish it won't happen in the future. the things that have been playing in my head is if I ever meet J. How the hell am I going to see him if he hasn't talk to me since April? The only thing that I want to do is just move on and try to push anything that hold me from moving on. I have a life, he has a life. Probably he's  better than mine eventhough he keep saying that his life is awful, one thing that I know for sure is he should learn to be grateful. Being grateful is better than being ungrateful. I admit that I'm not a perfect human being. I make mistake all the time with my cranky attitude but when it comes to grateful I'm cool with it. Let...