Switchfoot - Dare to move

Heyyyy.... it's me again, E as usual. I have so much fun today. I get to play volleyball with my classmate. I practically playing volleyball with a very long skirt which doesn't exactly follow the rules but who cares, it's only for training. Anyway, today me and my friends use google maps just to search for our house which I think is very funny. So this mean I'm not the only one who love google maps and search for people's houses 😄. I dream of J today when I took a nap and I feel surprisingly annoying... Believe me I am very annoying when I woke up from my dream. I just can't get over him. I try to stop thinking about him, but he suddenly appear in my dream. I feel like I've been haunted by my own memory. I get it that I messed up but I just can't stop think about him. I've been distracting myself from thinking about him but I just wish he stop appear in my brain cause for now. TBH I wish he did text me back. Tell me that I'm not a very good person other than ignore me. I hate being ignored. I wish him happy birthday and still no reply. I don't know whether his dad has his cellphone or he was banned from talking to me. I don't really know what's going on. 3 month without a single text from him. I wish he would just send me one text and that's more than enough to me. I didn't know I was that bad though. His dad hate me without knowing who I really was. I'm just a normal 19 year old girl who makes a lot of mistake and loves to read. Being with him? that's all start from being a friend to a guy, have a crush on him and then confess? If I did get a chance to talk to him I want to apologize for being a bad person. I admit and I swallow my pride this time. I just only want to have one day to talk to him. that's all that I ask.😢🌖


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