La Da Dee by Cody Simpson

Heyyyy.... How you doing? Fine? Anyway.... I was in the middle of doing the assignment more like groupwork assignment... hmmm.... We actually divide the work while at school and right now I'm stuck with it and I can't watch Fight for my way back korean drama due to my unfinish assignment. The only thing that I don't like is when I'm cranky, it's impossible for me to control my anger no matter how hard I try. So for now I'm okay and slight headache. I want to stay awake the whole night but I can't! urgh!! I have 3 more month till I leave high school and I can't wait. TBH I'm scare like I want to just stuck in bed and don't bother to get up. I'm not ready for the outside world. It's not that beautiful once you step out. I don't really know to describe it but I've been imagine it had been like Gotham city in Batman movie. Maybe it won't be that bad if you know how to deal with it and yourself. I notice that once teen around my age step out from their bird nest (HOME) they act really weird than they were before. They act out of control and wild as if there were no one to control how they act and this is why I'm afraid but I must have faith and confident in myself once I step out from the bird nest. I plan to be myself and try to not get influence by the society. I prefer being were like be myself and not "normal" which mean be just like society and forget who you are and where you were from. I've seen it before back when I was a kid. I observe my cousins especially the girls. It scare like hell. The way they act and the clothes they wear. I'm grateful that I haven't change since then.

My advice is be who you are, don't pretend to be somebody else, if you pretend to be someone else because you want to fit in with some group of friends that's wrong man, make friend with someone who can accept you by who you are, don't be fake, trust me no one like to be friend with fake people. The more you think about you just observe, you've become more mature than before. You just sat there and think about it. And the funny thing is it makes you quiet.

I think that's all for today 😁

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