E's World

Hello... Apparently I plan to update or write more frequently since I still had the time to write and before I get busy with piles of assignment. So right now I'm in my room while waiting for my clothes in the dryer. I'm practically with my roommie's friend. She came here very often which I never mind since she's a good company compare to my roommie. I went out to have dinner eventhough I plan to cook dinner since this is what I should do since I live here by myself without my parents. I don't really had anything to talk about since I didn't feel well after I took a nap in the evening which is a bad idea. So I'm pretty sure I'm going to have a sorethroat tonight if I didn't drink plenty of water and my parents going to be very pissed if I didn't took care of my health. I took extra classes and manage to persuade my friend. The reason why I took it is because it's the classes that I took before and I think me and my coursemate are the on...

Hellooooo.... Apparently it's night and I just got back from having dinner with my friends. We discuss about our group work and out assignment. As always whenever I'm with them I had fun most of the time. Till those two buy cute cereal container and then one of my friend say ' Dad I'm sorry that I waste my pocket money for this useless things' and then me and my other friend check our account and thought about having dinner by eating ramen the whole week. Hahahahahaha.... But as soon as I got back to my room. I do what I was suppose to do and ignore people around me. Not that I don't care, it's just I just don't give a damn thing about it eventhough I know that my roommate is my responsibility but she didn't treat me the way I treat her so I just ignore it. I have piles of work to do than bother about it. 2 days of semester 2 and I have two assignment that I need to do. I decide to do it tomorrow at the library. I also have classes tomorrow at ...

Hey, I just got back from going out with my dad. I think I surprise him because we had a deep conversation about my dad in the university. He never stay that long at the dining table but today he did. He listen to my rants about the apartment about people who live in it, friends who want to change faculty and the prices of the books. I did told him that the book is expensive and I use my piggy bank money to buy the book and the food supply. I told him it's okay I can handle it. I'll use my money to pay for the fees and for all the things that needed money. The whole day my feelings were unsettling and again I feel I accomplish something. I prove that I did something that didn't put burden on my parents that's is I pay for my own fees with my piggy bank money. I feel proud about myself for how I handle things that used to be handle by my parents. My uncle say he was gonna sponsor me books but the night after we had an awkward and tense dinner. The way he treat me ca...

What I'm going to talk here at 4PM is things that have been bugging my head for a while. Tbh till I start enter the University, I've been trying to figure about my life. This confusing life, people who's been around me, things that I have done and my accomplishment. Yep I'm still confuse. When I try to talk about this with people, they give me negative perspective of how they look at me and how they judge me. As a 20 year old lady who still act childish around her parents and her family, I'm not dumb as people thought I would be. Most people say over thinking is not good but whenever I'm over thinking, especially when I think about what I study in the class, I compare it with real life. But do people understand me? I don't think they would understand me. They would just bash whatever I talk to them or what I try to send messages to them. I had a bad feelings this semester will be tougher than before. I know I will face so many challenges. My perspective...

I pass my exam with a CGPA 2.91. My first very own University result. Goddd I thought I was gonna fail. For the exam in the past of two years legitly give me trauma. I end up in tears. My dad yell at me. My family... well my family apparently, they like to kill someone from the inside. But this sem I pass, I legitly thought I was going to fail but oh my god, my wish came true! If I didn't get C on my elective subject I would get 3.0 but well atleast I get to lift one burden off my shoulder. I was going to talk about something else but hahahahahha.... my grades distract me. One thing that I want to say is I am so bless having great friends. They are amazing. I try to keep up by being friendly and not awkward and I made it. I was going to talk about something that I chat with my friend last night. We talk about my mental problem. Eversince I left high school, I've notice I have anxiety. Anxiety being around people. In other word social anxiety. I can't be around people who...

Hello!!!! I'm back in my room, in my home, not in the dorm room or in other word the student apartment which include 9 person including me. I'm glad to be back home and away from the University. I went home late compare to my friends who has to flew back to their hometown. Since I live near, I decide to wait my roommate but apparently she kick me out so I'm going to say "thank you for the most ups and down in the past 5 month, not only you gave me the space that I need for also the misunderstood things about me" 🙏 10 things that I learn so far for the past 5 month: 1, I live with people who I just met. 2, I have rights to leave the room whenever I want (still stick to my ma and pa's rules) 3, No one going to serve you food or cook for you 4, How it feel to spend my own money 5, Do laundry by hands 6, Responsible toward myself compare to before 7, High patience, compare to before 8, Respect someone older than you (my roommates and housemates) 9, ...