AAR - Dance Inside

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Here I am listen to my favourite band that is All American Rejects (Fangirl scream inside) Actually the reason is I actually sacrifice my heart again. It's not like I pull my heart out from my chest. No way! That's insane hahahaha..... actually I have become a good friend to someone and we argue because I badmouth the bestfriend. And eventually the someone fall inlove with the bestfriend, but the thing is I like the someone. To people it's normal, everyone has gone through it. But I try to cope with my feelings but it's impossible. I keep asking myself am I making a huge mistake for hurting myself? That, I don't know. I think I've turn into Patrick from the perks of being a wallflower. Except I don't have Charlie for me to talk to so that's sucks. Anyway maybe it is my false but I can't force people to do what I want to do. So here I am act as if I'm a good friend to the someone and be like "YOU CAN DO IT!" and in the end I get hurt. So I might thanks myself for hurting myself. So now I don't even know what I'm going to do. I might figure out something to do. Maybe... I think... and I wouldn't do anything that crazy. That's not me. Be a good friends. That's what I am right? I think this all what I'm going to say. 😢

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