Underestimated and Telling people what to do?
Hey it's me again.
I've been thinking alot and since I haven't settle in for the University and still wait for the email whether I get accepted or not. I've been enggage into a small conversation with my uncle. We could say I was force into a conversation with my uncle. Brain meet unusual brain (ME!). There's few university that he want me to apply to and I don't exactly plan to leave my parents. I may not or barely listen to my parents but leaving them was never my intention because when you been going a lot of problems with your relatives and all of that and it make you want to leave instantly and never came back kind of giving you the guilt feels. I gotta admit I got yelled at by my cousin and she called me rude as I grew up and to me that is so amature cause I never yell at people like that in public and I get upset cause she embarassed me. I don't exactly give a damn about her but she's a bitch with a high pitch voice. Wait till you hear her baby talk. I swear I wanna puke. She just want to tell people that she is good person with a great job but seriously who can manage her with the attitude. At that time I want to fight her really bad but when your uncle or your aunt done nothing but good to you, you can't backfired them cause you think all the kindness that they have done for them. That's me. I think about people's kindness before their shitty attitude which I hate the most about myself.
Let's go back to the Application's prob. I have 5 choices of the university that I apply to. The probs is my uncle keep making me apply to University B and the courses that I chose is the Script writing, and BAM! He say I don't think you can do it, it's not easy, you must be creative. So this whole time of me spend most of my days in wattpad is nothing and not creative? So me writing those essay in my finals is not creative. After that I didn't want to say anything. He actually underestimate me. I know that I never show my works to people but he didn't have to say so. I didn't want to talk much with him cause he like to scold me and my siblings for what his daughter's doing. I get mad last time and say I never get suspended from school, never got caught making out, never going back and forth to the principle office and other stuff. I survive high school with flying colours. I still can't get over and I'll try to stay away from him the best I can. I don't like when people point fingers at me for things that I didn't do.
I've been thinking alot and since I haven't settle in for the University and still wait for the email whether I get accepted or not. I've been enggage into a small conversation with my uncle. We could say I was force into a conversation with my uncle. Brain meet unusual brain (ME!). There's few university that he want me to apply to and I don't exactly plan to leave my parents. I may not or barely listen to my parents but leaving them was never my intention because when you been going a lot of problems with your relatives and all of that and it make you want to leave instantly and never came back kind of giving you the guilt feels. I gotta admit I got yelled at by my cousin and she called me rude as I grew up and to me that is so amature cause I never yell at people like that in public and I get upset cause she embarassed me. I don't exactly give a damn about her but she's a bitch with a high pitch voice. Wait till you hear her baby talk. I swear I wanna puke. She just want to tell people that she is good person with a great job but seriously who can manage her with the attitude. At that time I want to fight her really bad but when your uncle or your aunt done nothing but good to you, you can't backfired them cause you think all the kindness that they have done for them. That's me. I think about people's kindness before their shitty attitude which I hate the most about myself.
Let's go back to the Application's prob. I have 5 choices of the university that I apply to. The probs is my uncle keep making me apply to University B and the courses that I chose is the Script writing, and BAM! He say I don't think you can do it, it's not easy, you must be creative. So this whole time of me spend most of my days in wattpad is nothing and not creative? So me writing those essay in my finals is not creative. After that I didn't want to say anything. He actually underestimate me. I know that I never show my works to people but he didn't have to say so. I didn't want to talk much with him cause he like to scold me and my siblings for what his daughter's doing. I get mad last time and say I never get suspended from school, never got caught making out, never going back and forth to the principle office and other stuff. I survive high school with flying colours. I still can't get over and I'll try to stay away from him the best I can. I don't like when people point fingers at me for things that I didn't do.
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