Am I the only one who have to pay the price?

Hi to whoever read this. So tonight I decided to write and I have two more days till Classes start. I have few assignment that needs to be done. Talk about promise to do it in the middle of mid sem break is bullshit. I try to finish it within this week but by doing this alone. It's impossible to finish them. I just read the manual and it say I have to search more than 10 Lit review. I try to contact the one who was suppose to do it with me but she keep ignoring me. I didn't only not get the chance to finish this work but I also get kicked out from the group. I just realize one thing is that if you being rude and try to fix things, don't do it. People hate it. I'm actually 100% clueless while typing here. I have to be some kind of plastic around people. I can't be myself while other people can. I really hate it. I can't give my perspective without people judge me. Then what the fuck am I doing in the class if I can't perform and grab those marks? What the fuck am I doing in there in the first place? To sleep? To play around? I came there to study, to be independent and becoming a human being. It has only been like a month or two and these people start their shit. And here I am try to listen to what my parents told me to do. It wouldn't be a lie that I got very happy when I receive the letter but when I actually came in. I swear there's a lil bit regret. I can't stand being around people who just can't act like an adult. I mean come on it's not freaking high school anymore. It's University life. I try to create mind with colourful rainbows and then suddenly I was dump because of stupid communication. I swear for the past 5 days I keep reading do research for me and my friend. Well we got dump remember? I have to pay for the price while she go out and hang with her buddy and here I am stuck in bed trying to be a great friends and do her friend a favor. I'm not complaining. I just stating the fact. Atleast lend a hand. I can't handle this on my own. I shed my tears by trying to understand people for the past 6 years including depression. I was suppose to be free from depression but I swear by entering a new chapter is going to make it worse. Got a crappy boast housemate, that's a first. I don't really know what so attractive about boast about your life? I try to not give a shit about it but it's hard to resist. Especially when they live next door to you. People like her that's surprising. I try to not rant about this to my parents but it is difficult as hell. Especially when my silent mood is on. I just want to have a normal (no bullshit). That's all that I'm asking and now I'm paying the price for myself just because of me lack of doing appointment with my lecture like seriously our lecture time is much important than us (what I thought before). This is the beginning of my hectic life. I'm just a Comm student and my life start with so many rocky roads and I still maintain to fool around and smile. I know people might think that my blog is very dramatic but if you want to be in my shoes go ahead. I lend one to you because I may have pretty shoes but it doesn't feel great once you step inside. The first thing when the class start I need to say goodbye to the polite me and hello Savage ES'138 (WELCOME BACK)