Cranberries - Free To Decide
Goodmorning everyone, it's almost noon so yeah, I decide to update my blog a little earlier cause usually I update my blog at night and not in daytime. But today I'm going to my mom's boss's house for Chinese New Year' Open house or party whatever you want to called them and I also receive an invitation to go to C's house, I would love to go but we might stay there a little bit longer and I'm not a big fan of going to other people's houses. Even on Eid, I was force by my parents to go visiting.
Anywho, I'm a little bit panicking cause next month my exam going to came out and I haven't decide which university I'm going to apply to. I have so many options but the Capital city is never was my option to go cause I'm just a ol' country village girl, whatever you wanna called who live near the city. At here there's village in the city which is very common. Hahahahaha... So, there few university that I wanna apply but I even tell myself to not go too far from home, I could just stay on the island but then I tell myself I wanna do things that I want to do and not do things that people want me to do. I meant it is sucks actually letting people tell you what to wear or what to do.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird in a cage which I can't free myself and I'm stuck in a secluded place. Where people told you what to do and all those stuff. My fashion senses sucks like literally sucks. I try to do something like wear some stuff that I found in my wardrobe and mix and match myself with it. I get really mad when people try to give critics about my clothes. I mean Avril Lavigne wear whatever she found in her closet and still people look up at her I meant I though this is a free country where you can wear whatever you want and not let other people to do so.
I have my own reasons why I chose University that's far from home is because I can't handle too much fam-drama. I've been going through family drama since I was 16 for god sake. Believe me at that age I literally don't give a fuck about anyone other than Kyle(X) Even he himself got shit going on with his sister and me being caught up with finals. But we? things just didn't work out the way we wanted. Friends? Nah! Basically I don't exactly mind being friends without feelings toward each other but I'm cool with it but he's not.
So anyway, I just want to get my mom out from this bullshit and let her rest. To me, as her oldest daughter, she need to go somewhere where she can cool her mind without think about anything. People has been giving her bullshit and believe me my mom is a freaking Angel that were send from heaven. She do good stuff to people and never give a shit when people do bad stuff toward her. To me it's not cool and not its not fair for her. I try to do what I should have done. But it doesn't work the way we want it to. I have her nephew and nieces. To me my cousin is nothing but a skank and a gold digger (idgaf if you found this blog cuzzie because all of you are so full of bullshit) I told my mom I want to study further so she could visit me. I chose specific places which is near to the beach. Even me myself need a time out from this whole bullshit stuff.
So, make good choices and don't ruin people's life, believe me the world is round and circle and karma do exist so be kind to one another, Ellen say this word before her show end because she done nothing wrong and do much good deeds to everyone
Anywho, I'm a little bit panicking cause next month my exam going to came out and I haven't decide which university I'm going to apply to. I have so many options but the Capital city is never was my option to go cause I'm just a ol' country village girl, whatever you wanna called who live near the city. At here there's village in the city which is very common. Hahahahaha... So, there few university that I wanna apply but I even tell myself to not go too far from home, I could just stay on the island but then I tell myself I wanna do things that I want to do and not do things that people want me to do. I meant it is sucks actually letting people tell you what to wear or what to do.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird in a cage which I can't free myself and I'm stuck in a secluded place. Where people told you what to do and all those stuff. My fashion senses sucks like literally sucks. I try to do something like wear some stuff that I found in my wardrobe and mix and match myself with it. I get really mad when people try to give critics about my clothes. I mean Avril Lavigne wear whatever she found in her closet and still people look up at her I meant I though this is a free country where you can wear whatever you want and not let other people to do so.
I have my own reasons why I chose University that's far from home is because I can't handle too much fam-drama. I've been going through family drama since I was 16 for god sake. Believe me at that age I literally don't give a fuck about anyone other than Kyle(X) Even he himself got shit going on with his sister and me being caught up with finals. But we? things just didn't work out the way we wanted. Friends? Nah! Basically I don't exactly mind being friends without feelings toward each other but I'm cool with it but he's not.
So anyway, I just want to get my mom out from this bullshit and let her rest. To me, as her oldest daughter, she need to go somewhere where she can cool her mind without think about anything. People has been giving her bullshit and believe me my mom is a freaking Angel that were send from heaven. She do good stuff to people and never give a shit when people do bad stuff toward her. To me it's not cool and not its not fair for her. I try to do what I should have done. But it doesn't work the way we want it to. I have her nephew and nieces. To me my cousin is nothing but a skank and a gold digger (idgaf if you found this blog cuzzie because all of you are so full of bullshit) I told my mom I want to study further so she could visit me. I chose specific places which is near to the beach. Even me myself need a time out from this whole bullshit stuff.
So, make good choices and don't ruin people's life, believe me the world is round and circle and karma do exist so be kind to one another, Ellen say this word before her show end because she done nothing wrong and do much good deeds to everyone
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