Peter Pan - Don't grow up it's a trap

Hey... it's been awhile, today is the last day of my finals and there are 5 more paper to go till school holidays and my head have been loaded with piles of work. Let's just say I study last minute for my finals which isn't a good idea. You were give a very short time to revise all the things that you have study before and I really don't like to do the last minute work because one, you'll lost your appetite when you busy doing revision. If my parents didn't force me to eat I won't touch any food in my house. They worried because I have stomach problem so that's why I have to eat no matter how much I don't want to eat 😭. I did graduate from high school. My mom came but my dad, he has work so he couldn't come so its fine. Cause when I get my degree all of them must come I don't care how busy they are. It's a must. Family drama still going on but since I have exam going on I don't want to think about it cause I want to focus on my exam and I really am tired with those drama. I just want it to stop and just forget about it. I swear if you don't stop thinking about it, you'll get annoy about it.

Let's just say I've been spending the whole day thinking about my grudge and it feel extremely awful because once I start to think about it, it won't stop it just came through me like waterfall flow down to the river. So basically all I could think about is the forgotten of my birthday which me myself forget about it if my sister didn't remind me. That time I was disappointed because my family which I meant by my mom's siblings would wish me in our family group but this time they act like an act and I've been waiting the whole day but oh well, this kid don't exist so... I just act like normal. I may be sound like a spoil brat but when you used to being treat like that then you totally get it but well... 2017 birthday is not a very great day of my birth to me. Atleast I know who I am and I know how awful I am by my attitude. Well I just want to say thanks. I try to not to make it a big deal but when you get treat like a piece or garbage or went through alot of stuff, you could be sensitive and all you want to do is sit at the corner and cry. In other word depression. I try to not give in to my depression but most of the time I fail. I stood up again to fight it again and again. The only thing I could do is deal with it and not stop it 100%.

I'm very thankful that my parents respect my wishes of not meeting any of my relatives due to my exam month. Atleast I don't have to see those snobs kids. I guess this is all I'm going to type.

E'S138

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